Its been sometime since my last posting, but sorry everybody i had been busy with ns till now. Ns has been fun and learnt alot. My head is bald and thats about all i can reveal. Yup, looking foward now and its time for future plan. Lots of stuff to do in a very short time. Hmmm good luck to me!!!

:D 8:18 AM

Tmr, or should i say today at 1pm will be the moment. The day i enter NS. Two years of training is about to officially begin. I am now feeling rather lost, with alot of suspense and uncertainty due to the fact that i have heard of so many stories regarding life inside yet i myself have yet to see it for myself. Perhaps i might be a changed person from today onwards. The official day of entry to NS, yet i feel emotionless. I do not feel tense nor worried. In fact excitement brews in me. This will be a memorable experience.

Everybody due to a turn of events, i have accidentally short-circuited my entire phone and lost literally all my contacts. If u see this, pls msg me ur name so that i can reconsolidate my contact and know who are u the next time u msg me. Thanx alot. If u dun have my number, it is 91127781. Will really appreciate if u do so. =)

:D 12:24 AM

My first entry of the year 2009!!! Haha.. Somehow i feel like a diff person. Jus a few days into the year, alot of ups and downs has occurred. Perhaps it is part of a learning process, allowing us to balance times of unhappiness with our daily life. As my enlistment date drew closer and closer, i began to feel the pressure of needing to prepare for it. But i have packed so much work, play and classes that i hardly find anytime to do so. Perhaps i should really do it in the middle of the night.. =)

:D 8:44 AM

I am such an idiot really.. After all that i have done to build up ur confidence and trust, i had to ruin it with a few bottles of alcohol.. Not only i put all these at risk, i placed ur safety at risk also.. U could have easily got into trouble and i will be here sleeping like there is no tmr.. I am simply an idiot.. Now that all the trust is lost, i have to start the painful journey all over again. The fear of lost is once again arising and the self reprimanding i am facing now is irreparable. All the understanding and the sacrifices i've seen is ringing in my head and in now way i am in any position to complain. As much as i am devastated by the new changes because of my action, i have to bear the consequences of going through an emotional roller coaster and days of insomnia.

I AM SORRY FOR EVERYTHING!!

:D 12:07 AM

Hmmm. Busy busy busy.. Had band fest last week!!Got to know many new ppl and it is great to be able to interact with Doctor Eric Hammer. He is truly an impressive man and has bountiful knowledge in terms of musical learning. To seat in his rehearsals benefitted me alot and will help in my personal progress in the future, whether as a teacher or as a player!! Fellow chaperones and log ppl were oso great ppl, nv failing to make each and every day of band fest so much fun despite the exhaustion and stress of it. Overall it was great!! =)

I oso began my driving lessons last week and it was very fun. It gave me a new perspective of the road and as i walked along the road, signs and signals made much more sense to me. It will be an interesting experience ahead of me.

Attended phil youth concert on tues. Met sharine after such a long time and yup somehow seemed to really let this godsister down when i think of the fact that this is only one of the two concerts i have attended out of so many others. OOOOPS!! Haiz.. Should really meet up with her and my whole other bunch of friends that i nv got to contact soon before we really lose contact. Yup.

Went to sentosa yesterday with carmen. Had fun in the morning at first. Went to underwater world, fed the stingrays, touched starfishes, pufferfishes and archerfishes. Watched cinemagic, took the extremelog ride and went dolphin lagoon. At dolphin lagoon got around 40 plus sandfly bites which itch up till now. Afternoon got a little boring and frustrating as the crowd started building up and thus we left early and headed to vivo. Did some shopping, met cheryl there and yup the day is over. Went home with my itchy sandfly bites.

Hmmm. I do not know. But something inside had been broiling. However i am not able to tell if it is positive or negative. But the fact is that recently i had been much happier with myself and life. So perhaps it is something good. But wadever it is, if fate allowed that to happen to me, i will accept and go on with life strongly.

Last but not least, all things aside. Anybody interested in going NIE Concert pls contact me. Repertoire includes songs such as star wars, women in white and disney fantillusion. 5 Bucks per tix at NTU Auditorium at 5pm on coming sat. Come cause it is rare to have a concert like that with such a light repertoire. =)

:D 2:46 PM

Alot has happened recently and caused me to think alot. Is being myself really so diff? Y is life so hard on me and has so much unhappiness encompassing simple things. I am happy and appreciative of things that are occurring, but i am unsatisfied and unhappy about all i need to go through.. Hmmm.. Guess it really not as easy as i thought.. Hundreds of thought whirling in my mind, but yet i am able to comprehend none into words to explain to others.. Perhaps to put it simply, i have lost confidence bout many things!!

:D 1:06 AM